God of Second Chances

Last week when I went to bed and was trying to fall asleep quickly, without much luck.  It was one of those moments where your really tired but can't sleep.  So I was asking God to help me fall asleep and He told me to change position (I was getting pretty warm since I had added an extra blanket, and I had resulted in taking my socks off to help my body cool off).  God instead said to put my socks on and take the extra blanket off to cool my body off just enough. Though I think it was more of a test to see if I would follow what He said more than it was actually cooling off.  Anyways, I was tired and I knew that the more I move around the more awake I would be, so for the time being, I said no.  God simply replied, you won't be able to go to sleep until you do.  So I resulted in following what he had said.

Shortly after, Daniel walked in the room and was over by his bed.  While he was there it sounded like his allergies were really bad.  So I prayed and asked God to take away his allergies.  Again I think it was God testing me to see if I will follow what He says right away, for He replied, "touch him and it will be done."   Sounds simply right, yeah it is, and I know that the Bible clearly teaches in the power of laying hands on people... BUT I was laying in bed, really tired and I wanted to go to sleep.   Daniel wasn't going to just happen to walk over to my bed (he though I was sleeping) so I can awkwardly reach out and touch him.  So I again told God my dilemma and that I didn't want to get out of bed.  He said, "if you touch him, he will be healed."  I said, "I don't want to get out of bed, if I get up it will wake me up."

Suddenly I was convicted that I was preventing someone from being healed do to my selfishness. As I was battling this, Daniel walked out of the room.  I was kicking myself that I hadn't done something when I finally decided to get up and walk out and pray for him.  I got up and opened the door only to find one of two options (both that would really wake me up): 1) he went outside or 2) he went upstairs.  The problem with upstairs is that Laura had company over and it was all full of talking up there.  So I sadly resulted in coming back to bed, sad that I hadn't done what God asked me to do, when He told me to do it.  I just felt heavy and guilty.  I started crying and asking God for forgiveness.  As He assured me that I am forgiven, the song "God of Second Chances" from the Veggie Tales movie: Jonah, flooded my head.

I was so thankful. Shortly after Daniel walked in and I asked if I could pray for him, and I did (and I fell asleep quickly after).  Then in the morning I asked him how his allergies were doing and he said they were great! Praise God!

Moral of the story: Do what God tells you to do the first time