Fears

So this morning I sat down in prayer and put some worship music on to just sit and worship God.   The song that played was "No Longer Slaves".  If you haven't heard it the most repeated line is, "I'm no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God."  This is always a great reminder.  This morning God was reminding me that I haven't surrendered all my fears to Him, I had done some, but not all.  So I started searching for specific fears that I hadn't surrendered yet.  I found a few and was praying about them, but in the back of my head I asked myself, "what specific fears have I not surrendered?"  God answered my question in a very unexpected, fearful way.  My eyes immediately popped open and right next to me climbing down the wall was a huge spider with a leg-span of 4-5 inches.  Let's just say that I.... I... am not a huge fan of spiders, actually I'm not a fan at all, especially when they are huge and sneak up on me like this. The thought of "I'm no longer a slave to fear" left my head that very instant.  I jumped back and tried to smash it.   It really shook me up and I felt God speaking to me through it.  I heard my iPod playing as my heart was pounding 100 miles per hour, "I'm no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God" That really convicted me and I knew that God was telling me to surrender ALL my fears, not just the ones concerning my future.   Wow, I'm still really shook up.... Thank you Lord for answering my prayer and please help me surrender this fear to you.  I have a feeling that surrendering this fear will be harder than I thought, I am really, really scared of spiders....