Trust - Words From God

Wednesday night: Life Groups (Week #1); How to Find your Miracle: 

During Life Groups, I was taking notes and I noticed as Dot (on of the teachers) was reading John 5:30, an underlined area (that I had underlined long ago), "...I do nothing without consulting the Father."  That section just slammed min really hard and went back to the verse, "pray about everything."  God was just telling me that I need to talk to Him about Everything.

Then I felt the Holy Spirit pressing on me that I am fearing something.  So I cried out, "Lord what am I fearing?"  He replied that I am fearing by belief of inability to tell between His voice and my head.  That is so true and I was in tears. I had never thought about that as a fear before.  But God put it into words for me, thank you Lord!  He told me that if I listen I will know His voice.  If I dig intoHim, If I read His word, I fi seek Him, He will teach me His voice.  The more time I spend with Him, I will learn to know His voice better.

Bryan (another leader) came over and talked to me (and blessed me by bringing over a box of Kleenexes) and prayed with me.  His words were from God.  God spoke to me that His words are true.  That truth is pouring into me.  I need to dwell in the truth.

Through Bryan, God also spoke, I am a child of God.  He will teach me and speak with me.  The lies in me are flow ing out and God's truth is flowing in.  He is speaking to me.

As I was leaving church, I decided to leave everything at church so that I wouldn't have any distractions of going to bed when I got home.  But I felt God trying to say something to me.  I sat out in my car for a while and finally realized that God wanted to speak to me but knew that I would forget it if I didn't write it down.  He wanted me to go back into my office in the church and grab my notebook.  So I did.

On my drive home from church, I really had a strong feeling that God wanted to speak to me.  So I din't put any music on and I just prayed and reflected on the evenings events.  He told me what turns to make, taking me a different way home.  At one point he had me turn onto a road which would lead me to a gravel/dirt road.  I reminded Him that I don't like, nor do I feel comfortable, driving on gravel/dirt roads at night.  He responded with, "I want you to do it so you will know that there will be things that you don't wan to do, things that feel unsafe, but I tell you to do." He is with me and has a plan.

As I was doing it, I thought to myself, "I'll just drive slow, God didn't say I had to go full speed, I don't have to go 80." God heard my thoughts and said to me, "I want you to drive 80 on the gravel road."  At one point, He told me to let go of the wheel and let Him drive (while driving 80 on a gravel road at night).  Every time I did let go, the car would go towards the ditch and I would reach out and grab the wheel again. Further down the road,  I was able to let go for a bit longer, but God said, "You slowed down..."

All this to tell/show me the true depth of my trust in Him. . .