Vision

For those of you who don't know, I have been wrestling with a really big decision recently.  What to do next year?  That's the gist of it, but there's an even bigger question that's been on my mind a lot: Should I move to Canada.  At first it seemed ridiculous, and it was out of the question, but recently God had kept resurfacing it in my mind.  I keep asking God to give me wisdom on making the decision.  Whether I am thinking on it or not, almost every time I ask God to give me wisdom on what to do next year, the word "Canada" pops into my head.  I've been questioning it on "is this just my mind or is it the Holy Spirit speaking to me?"   Now, after my experience this morning, I am pretty sure it was/is the Holy Spirit speaking to me.  I woke up this morning for class only to find out that it was canceled, so I went back to bed and from there is where God spoke to me.  I have never had such an experience, nor have I ever thought I would have the experience.  God spoke to me in the form of a dream; a vision.  

In the dream I was in a church, up front with to two other guys.  We started singing "Great I Am" and felt God's presence.  It lead us into a Holy Spirit moment.  All three of us were then laying on the steps of the platform or small stage of this church with our faces down on the ground and arms stretched out. I then had a vision (in this dream): I was all of a sudden in a room by my self.  The other two guys weren't there. The room was a whitish-grayish color.  I couldn't see very far, but I could see huge white and blue pillars in the distance.  I then turned around and saw a few stairs in front of me (I assume there were only 5-10 stairs), they looked kind of like marble.  At the top of the stairs was The Great Throne, God’s Throne.  Upon the Great Throne was a being so white and bright I couldn’t tell who or what it was – I could make out nothing.  But I knew in my heart that It was God.   I was overwhelmed, I fell down before Him worshiping Him and listening.  He called me by name, “Joshua,” I replied, “Yes, Lord.”  He said, “I know you have been hurting…” At that instant in the back of my head a thought crossed my mind, where was He going with this?  Jesus continued, “…about moving to Canada.”  This really hit me.  He was actually addressing this.  I felt His presence more than ever, In the back of my head I felt that He was standing in front of me smiling and looking down at me with His arms outstretched. He continued, “Remember that I have called you to leave your mother and father to a new country, for me.”  I started to cry, understanding what He meant, that He directly answered my prayer.  Then things started to fade, I knew I was crying, and everything around me faded to the grayish-white.  I was no longer in that room with Jesus, but nor was I in the Church with the other two guys.  This all happened in an instant. Then I woke up.  I wasn’t crying, but I had the realization that God had just spoken to me.
 

I don’t know if I have ever had God speak so directly to me, nor has He ever spoken to me through a dream.  The one thing I do know is, though, that He wants me to be here in Canada.  To me, that was a direct answer to prayer!

I’m not entirely sure what I will do in Canada next year, but I am trusting God to lead me.  I am applying to SLI year 2 (SLI Interns) which was just introduced in the past few weeks.   I also might apply to the University of Waterloo (though I don’t know for what) and then let God swing doors wide open or slam them shut.  If I go to Waterloo, I will need to find a job.  For either SLI or Waterloo (or something else), I will need to get a visa, a different car, insurance, and a number of other things.  So please pray that God will provide.  God is doing great things.   For this to all work out many things will have to fall into place, which I’m praying that God will line things up for things to fall into place.