Love So Deep

Last Sunday I felt like God was directing me to go to Eastview Church in Normal, Illinois.   During the worship portion of the service I felt a freedom that I haven't felt in a long while, a freedom to worship in a greater depth.   Likewise at the end of the service they did communion and God answered one of my prayers right then and there.  I had been praying for God to show me more of His love and that I may see a greater extent and expanse of His love.  He showed it to me.  He reminded me of many pictures and visions that He's shown me in the past, and brought them all together to the point where I was crying at how unworthy I am of His love.  

During worship at the end of the service we sang a 'Victory' song (after communion).  God made His love so real to me.   Jesus bore every curse.  Then I saw His love, washing over me.   John 15:15 says that I am Christ's Friend!  There is no greater love than to give your life for one's friend.  "God I don't deserve this love.   I am not worthy of this love. God what did I do to deserve this love?"   God replied, "nothing."   Love.  Love so deep, love so pure, Love!  In the sadness, in the midst of tears and emotions, this morning's Life Journal entry came into play: Joy Unspeakable Joy!  I was mixed with awe, unspeakable Joy, laughter and tears.   God's Love!   I did nothing for it, yet He gave it.  He told me HE knew how 'evil' people would get, yet He chose to let us be.  He could have killed off Adam and Eve or Noah, but He didn't.  He knew that such pain and brokenness would fill the earth, yet He Loved us, He Loved me! God oh what Joy!  An answer to prayer, even this morning's prayer: to experience, to know His Love more, to know His Love deeper.  Thank you Lord!  Thank you Lord!