No Computer -> No Blog

So, again, I haven't written in a while.   There is a little story behind that.   For those of you who don't know, in the process of getting rid of everything I felt God leading me to get rid of my laptop.   That was a biggie since just moments before I felt Him ask me to get rid of it, I had concluded that I could not get rid of it even if I had to.  Well I did.   I sold it and the money from it was an answer to prayer as it can help cover the cost of the repairs I had done on my car.   But since not having a laptop, all my homework that needs a computer, is done at school.  This, though it has a temporary inconvenience, is a wonderful blessing.  Now I have been forced to work on my time management, and in the last week and a half alone, I've got more homework done than I would of every hoped to get done in that time period.  Not only that, but having all of a sudden a ton of extra time at home, I have started using some of that time with God; digging more into His word and just spending time with Him.   And through that I have noticed a clear growth in my spiritual growth with God.  This comes at great timing as well.   For the past few weeks I have been really struggling with how I hear God's voice.  I know well that I can hear God's voice as I've heard it so clearly so many times.  However the challenge I've been facing is this question: "is the voice I am hearing actually God?"  What brought me here was a lot of the things that I was hearing (and following) did not line up with what I knew was right, not that what I know is always right, but also some things that did not line up with the Bible.  Thus I took a big step back and have been fighting quite a battle inside me the past number of weeks.   I have been deliberately not obeying some things that the voice in me, that I had labeled as "God", just to test it.   Upon continuing my own path or taking a opposite turn contrary to this voice, I noticed a lot of time, I did not lose peace.    From my experience, when God tells/asks me to do something, go somewhere, say something, or anything really, and I do not do it, or I test to see if it was His voice by doing something different, I will lose peace.   Lately, I haven't been losing peace which is telling me, I think, that the voice I have been hearing and labeling as "God" is not God.   So, in that sense, I feel like I'm back to square one, except I know that I've heard Him many times before.   Thus with all of this, I have been questioning a number of the things that I have 'heard' over the past number of weeks asking if that voice was really God too.    So, I am still in this state, though I think (I hope) that I am climbing out of it.  Having the suddenly available time to spend with Him (where I would of lounged or wasted time) has really helped, but I am still really struggling to know what voice is His and which voices are not.  

Back to the point I was intending to write about, I haven't blogged much in the last few weeks since I don't have a computer to blog on.  Well, yes I have the school computers (that I am using now) but almost every time I am using a computer at school, I don't even think to update the blog as I am doing homework.  I had gotten too much in the habit of only updating the blog when I had extra time at home and when I really felt like it.  I am hoping and will be trying to break that habit.  You are all welcome to remind me if you want too - I would appreciate that.