Late Night Talk With God

Last night I lay awake with soft worship music playing listening to God.  I spent what I’m guessing was about 20-30 minutes just talking with God.   It’s been a long while since I’ve talked to God like this.   It wasn’t me bringing Him all my needs, but it was a conversation.  Yes I asked Him questions relating to my needs, but It wasn’t all me and about me. 

Through our talk He told me many things.  He told me to make an offer on a car I'm looking at.   He told me to trust Him.   IT’S all about His love and my trust of His love.   He told me that He loves me.  He told me that He will provide.  I don’t have the money at this moment to offer for a car, but He said (again) He will provide just as He has told me.  When I informed Him that I don’t have enough He replied, “Do you doubt me?”  It was just the way He said it – it made me chuckle and I told Him, “no Lord, I don’t doubt you.”  He told me that I have trials and hard times coming in my life and right now is His time to strengthen me, therefore that is a reason why He has been (and is) testing my trust and patience.   He is preparing me for a future life event/season.   I was telling Him about my day going to Gateway and all and I asked Him why I felt such a freedom while I was there.  He just said something like, “You were in my house.”  When I told Him that we are planning to go to the Potter’s House Sunday morning, He smiled and chuckled stating, “oh you are in for a surprise.”  After asking Him about it, He would only tell me that I’m in for a surprise.  When I asked Him if I should be worried, He chuckled again and said, “Whom shall you fear?  Trust me! I am with you.”   In my heart that told me that it’s nothing I should be worried about, I think it’ll be a good surprise.  He said that TD Jakes will be there, but there will be something else too.   I’m looking forward to what that is.   – After going to The Potter’s House, I think that the surprise was either TD Jakes wasn’t the preacher, or that there was a really cool and really good VBS presentation (singing, dancing and ballet).   We also got to sit in the balcony, almost dead center, it was really neat.       

While I was talking to Him about Gateway I mentioned that the place, as open and large as it was, emptied really quickly.  I thought that there was a huge lack of fellowship, to which the lord looked down on me and smiled, “Fellowship isn’t just for my house.  Fellowship is everywhere, not just in the church.”  

Near the end of our talk, God kept telling me to get some sleep, “you’ll need your sleep”.  It was past midnight and I needed to get up around 6:00am to get ready for The Potter’s House (and I always try to get 7-8 hours of sleep Every night).  I asked Him if He’d give me extra sleep tonight and He said He would, that He was with me.  He’s watching over me.    Knowing that in the morning I always forget the awesome thoughts I had right before going to sleep the night before, I asked Him if I should get up and write down our conversation or if He’ll remind me of it in the morning.  He assured me and at my question He reassured me that He’ll remind me in the morning.  I told Him that I wish I could tape record our conversations and we both got a good laugh out of that.  

Oh Time with God is so rewarding, so pleasurable and so amazing.   I love you Lord!  

I also asked Him to teach me to trust Him in a new way.  I want to learn how to fully, 100% trust Him in all circumstances, all things, and every waking moment of my life.  To me that almost (to that seemingly extreme) seems impossible.  However all things are possible through Christ.  I want to Learn that, to trust Him fully – and I can’t do it by my own strength, I can only do it through Him.  He told me to “Revise and Live Out” again.  He said to remember what Christ did on the cross and the value of that at all times.  “Do you remember how excited you were when you learned who the Holy Spirit is?” I replied with a “yes”, God continued, “Remember that always.  Remember that meaning, who He is. Remember who you are and who I am.” -  “I love you” -  “I am yours and YOU ARE MINE!  I will take care of you. I am watching over you. Trust me.”