God Speaking

Wednesday was our Final Life Group for spring.  The life group I've been helping lead was The Shift (boys): grade 5-8 boys.   We've each week compared a superhero to a bible character.  For the final week our bible character was Jesus, and since no superhero can even compare to Jesus, our superhero was also Jesus.  We watched a number of clips of different events in Jesus' life (each about 10 minutes long) and then one of us leaders spoke after each clip.  I was asked to speak after the clip of feeding the 5,000 and Jesus walking on the water.  As I was speaking to the kids (3 of them, plus 3 other teachers/helpers), God spoke to me in my life.  I had a general idea of what I was going to say, but as the Holy Spirit spoke to me while I was talking, I was able to expand on what I was saying.

I knew that I was a few minutes away from talking to the kids, and I suddenly be came very anxious, nervous and a bit worried. The fear thoughts started to flood my head.  I kept trying to turn my focus back onto the fact that God is with me, whom shall I fear.  Then the Holy Spirit spoke to me, "do you believe what you are about to teach?"  He showed me that I truly believe that God provides and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, then I should have no problem speaking to others.

The next two paragraphs are the first two paragraphs of what I said to the class.  The second paragraph is where the Holy Spirit really spoke to me, based off of the first paragraph.

In the feeding of the 5,000, Jesus was a provider.  He lead, taught, and provided.  Notice that Jesus DID NOT feed the 5,000.   The disciples did. "..He blessed and broke and gave the bread to the disciples; and the disciples gave to the multitudes." (Matthew 14:19b, NKJ).  It was the disciples who actually fed the people.  Earlier the disciples had asked Jesus about food for all the people.  Jesus replied with, "You give them something to eat." (Matthew 14:16b, NKJ).  Jesus had called the disciples to feed the people.  Now the disciples had a need that seemed impossible, but through faith, Jesus provided.  Jesus provided for the disciples so that they could carry out the calling that Jesus gave them, "You give them something to eat."  Jesus won't do it for us, He wants us to learn.  He will help us, walk us through it and provide for us, in His own way on His own timing, but He still wants us to do what He has called us to do.

This really hit home to me because I see this in my life right now.  As I said weeks ago, I felt very strongly that God was calling me to Canada. So I said, "okay God, I'll move to Canada."  But then a problem arose, the earthly authority seemed to be agains that.  Canada told me I was not eligible to apply to be a Permanent Resident. I really felt that God was calling me to Canada, yet they way I saw to do it suddenly seemed impossible.   But since I ran into that problem God has started to provide.  He has suddenly put many people into my life to speak to me encouragement, words of peace and direction straight from God.  He is showing me that He will provide, for He is with me. I just have to be patient.  I am on His time schedule not mine.  God still wants me to do what He has called me to do (to move to Canada) and He will provide for me.  He will walk me through the tough times and the smooth times; He will be with me at all times.  He reassured me resurfacing Philippians 4:13, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."