The week following Spring Break was really overwhelming and a bit stressful. I had planned to get caught up on homework over Spring Break, plus do the extra work assigned over break, plus I was hoping to get a bit ahead to help with my stress. However very little of that happened since I was in Canada the 2nd half and the few days prior I was a bit of an emotional wreck with the news of Wayne's death. So Coming back to all that work to get done, plus classes, plus upcoming assignments, readings, and projects - that all piled on stress and overwhelmment. And to top it off, actually this was one of the bigger struggles, was the emotional stress. Just the reality and processing that Wayne was dead and all that, it was miserable. However God showed up and showed again the power of prayer. I had asked two people to pray for my stress and overwhelmment over lunch Tuesday and I spent time in His word and with Him. After reading His word, there was an obvious peace and change, though I was still overwhelmed. I went into my afternoon class, which has brought stress and lots of overwhelming moments in the past, overwhelmed and I walked out completely at peace! God is so Good!
It has been really hard, yet just this week I am finally getting caught up. But, that doesn't mean I don't have work to do :). I still have several big projects coming up, including a final project due at the end of April which is basically 3-5 big projects combined. I need to start digging into that.
I did talk with my supervisor yesterday at work and they do want me to work over summer which is exciting! On the down side, as a student-worker, they are only allowed to give me 25 hours a week - I had requested 30-40 (and I currently get 15 hours a week). She also mentioned something about being able to schedule the 25 hours say in morning or afternoons and finding another job in the off time to fill the extra desired hours. I could just find another job all together, except I really would like to stay at this job, as I really enjoy it. Yes I don't get paid much, but I feel that the enjoyment of it is worth so much more. I look at my dad for example, as he just switched jobs recently. I believe he took a decent pay cut in accepting his new job, but they way he enjoys it brings me excitement and joy and life, and I can only imagine what it dose for him. So, yes I would like to have a higher paying job, but enjoyment and fulfillment in it is a much higher priority to me. If God will allow it, He will provide where there is lack.
I am glad if you can get 25 hrs with them - and something else will work out. Good Blog - always enjoy them and am interested.
ReplyDeleteIt's also good to have been at a job for a while, to show commitment to your work, on a resume. At least that's the way it used to be! So that might be another reason to stay at your current job for the summer. :-)
ReplyDeleteGlad you are finding strength in God through the grieving process. . . it's good to grieve rather than just pushing the feelings down. Love you.
Cindy, That is a good point, that keeping a job for a while may be good on a resume. I am actually thinking - and praying - about not getting a second part time job and instead study the Bible and use that time with God. It would be challenging at first, but I think it would be very beneficial. However since finances are not the most abundant right now, I am really praying about the wisdom of this.
ReplyDeleteGod has been so good to me thus far, and He won't stop there. He is good all the time! As the song "God is Good" by Don Moen says,
"God is good,
all the time,
through he darkest night,
His light will shine,
God is good,
God is Good,
all the time."